This blog post is part of my twin flame journey series.
I never expected to fall deeply in love with a man I barely knew. Not in the traditional sense, anyway. There was no long courtship, no months of dating, no exchanged phone numbers.
Just a brief online connection that somehow struck a chord deep in my soul and changed the trajectory of my life. His real name, I will keep it private. But in this article, I will refer to him as JX.
Thanks to meeting him, my life was turned upside down.
And this is the beginning of what my twin flame journey started. It all began with him.
It has taught me about real love and the kind of patience only the soul understands. A soul love that is real and not superficial.
One that is true to those who are on a twin flame journey.
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The Day Everything Changed
I don’t remember the date or time of our meeting.
I do remember it was the late summer of 2020. My marriage was in turmoil. I had left my 5-year job as a dental assistant.
I was going through changes.
I remember I started doing UberEats because of flexibility. One day it was pouring down and my then-husband and I decided to be at home instead. We started watching Netflix.
All of a sudden, I heard an inner voice to find a childhood friend from my country. A childhood friend that I hadn’t thought of since forever until that day. It was weird.
For weeks, I searched online and found nothing. But I found a dating app. This dating app was able to connect me with people from my home country. I didn’t find anyone. Then it occurred to me to ask a family member about him. So, I did. She gave me all the details, and that was it.
Here comes the weird, crazy part. Somehow, I felt a sort of pull to go back to the dating app. I was already in turmoil with my marriage because I found out he was cheating on me while I was at work.
So, even though he was still there living with me, we were in terms of separation. He was packing his things to move out. We were sleeping separately. It was over.
I decided to recreate a new account on the dating app. I started talking to a few men, but none struck me as hard as JX.
It started after a few days of being on the app. It was a Saturday. I wasn’t expecting much. After marriage going into failure due to his affair, I wasn’t looking for love. I was just curious. When I came across JX’s profile, something inside me shifted.
I still remember my very first thought: “Wow. Who is he?” He was wearing a simple white polo and jeans. Nothing flashy. But his eyes—they held depth, warmth, something I couldn’t explain. He had this gorgeous smile.
And since I was a dental assistant for 5 years, it was pleasing to me.
I sent him a like. He responded instantly. His instant response gave me butterflies in my stomach. I felt giddy and like a teenager. Mind you, I met other people online besides JX. Yet, he was the only one that made me feel butterflies in my stomach.
It was not anxiety. I felt as if someone was tickling my stomach. I felt happy for some odd reason.
Less than a minute later, we were chatting.
It was simple at first. But my heart was racing. Something about him felt familiar. Like I had known him before. I couldn’t stop staring at his eyes. I didn’t understand what was happening.
Little did I know that this was a connection of a twin flame journey.
Like this wasn’t our first lifetime together.
The Ghosting, the Pain, and the Awakening
Not long after we connected, he ghosted me. We connected for about a month. His ghosting didn’t send me into a spiral right away. I thought at first, since it was a dating app, that maybe he had met someone else.
I was sad.
My emotional spiral came after my then-husband finally left.
I couldn’t make sense of it. I didn’t even know JX—not really—so why did it hurt so deeply? Why did it feel like I’d lost something sacred?
The pain pushed me inward. Into healing. Into spiritual growth. Into questioning everything I believed about love, connection, and fate. I started getting visions, dreams, and intuitive downloads. I heard his name everywhere.
There were days I couldn’t sleep, eat, or do anything. I didn’t do UberEats anymore. I knew I was grieving for my failed marriage.
However, JX’s name was appearing EVERYWHERE. Then the synchronicities. I was so confused about what was going on in my life. I had never felt or experienced anything like it. Not even in previous relationships.
I saw signs I couldn’t ignore. I started looking for answers in the tarot readings. That’s when I stumbled upon the concept of twin flames.
Suddenly, everything clicked. The intensity. The heartbreak. The synchronicities. The longing. The separation. It was all part of something bigger.
I started having weird dreams with JX.
There was one particular one that I had experienced one night. It was around 3 in the morning. I woke up scared because I literally heard him screaming my name. As if he was screaming my name for help.
There were random days when my chest started to feel warmth as if someone was placing a heating pad on my chest. My left side. It was not heartburn or anything like it.
I was constantly seeing 1111, 1010, and 2222, and sometimes I felt as if I could hear his voice, which is ridiculous because we only chatted, never spoke. And somehow, one time, I dreamed that he told me it was his birthday.
I was half asleep when I heard him saying it was his birthday. At first I thought he was talking about my birthday, to which I responded, “No, my birthday is next month.”
There are some random days when I can feel remote touches. I can feel when someone is caressing my lips, hands, or fingers. The first time in a vision when he was kissing my crown, I felt it, and I got goosebumps right after.
Lessons in Divine Timing
One of the hardest parts of this journey? Trusting in divine timing. There were days I wanted to give up. Days I called it delusion. Days I cried and screamed at the sky, “Why would the universe give me this connection if I can’t have it?”
But the answer was always the same: “Not yet.”
So, I waited. And while I waited, I grew.
The Love That Doesn’t Leave
I tried to move on. I even entered another relationship 4 years after my divorce. But the truth is, my soul never stopped calling for him. And deep down, I always felt his energy too. Through dreams, through signs, through intuitive whispers that felt like his voice.
In one vision, he kissed the crown of my head—tenderly, reverently. In another, he screamed my name while chained and fighting to get to me. In our dreams, we met in foreign places, embraced, loved, argued, and reunited. And even though we haven’t physically seen each other since that chat, the connection has never once faded.
If anything, it’s grown stronger.
Healing Through Faith and Reflection
This journey has forced me to confront everything I avoided for years: childhood trauma, rejection wounds, and fears of abandonment. I used to believe that love meant pain and struggle. I used to chase affection just to feel seen. But with JX, I didn’t have to chase. His energy was always present, even when he wasn’t.
And in his absence, I learned how to show up for myself. I learned to nurture my inner child. To forgive. To let go of timelines. To trust.
It brought me back to faith—not in a religious sense, but in a divine, universal love that goes beyond the physical. The Bible verse “Faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen” (Hebrews 11:1) now has a whole new meaning for me.
What Patience Really Means
Patience isn’t passive. It’s not just sitting around waiting. It’s becoming. It’s preparing. It’s trusting that everything is unfolding in divine order.
I started going inward and learning more of what I needed to change. For example, I started cooking more traditional meals (I hardly cooked), learning new skills, studying the Proverbs 31 woman, and becoming someone who can hold love without fear.
Even on the days I want to walk away, I feel his energy gently pulling me back—not to pain, but to purpose. To alignment. To the truth.
I started to see that my twin flame journey is not for the weak-skinned but for those who connect fully within their higher self and embrace it.
This Love Is Not a Fantasy
For a long time, I thought I was just making it all up in my head. But when you experience spiritual touches, telepathic dreams, and emotional downloads that leave you breathless, you know it’s real. When you feel someone’s presence without them being physically near, when your soul keeps whispering their name even as your mind screams logic, you know.
This journey isn’t about fairy tales. It’s about becoming whole. It’s about choosing love over fear—every single day.
Final Thoughts: What My Twin Flame Journey Taught Me
It taught me that love is patient. That healing takes time. That you don’t need someone to be in the room for them to be in your heart.
It taught me that true love starts within.
Most of all, it taught me that I am not crazy. That some connections are sacred. And even if we are not together yet, I know in my soul—we’re not done.
So I walk forward, one day at a time. Trusting. Believing. Preparing.
Real love waits. It doesn’t end.
And now, so do I.
